Is It Hot in Here?

Nope, just a hot flash.

Holy Heck.  I am taking my primrose/vit E/Bcomplex combination and it is helping.  How do I have such faith?  well, because I stopped for a bit just to see and yup.  The combo makes it easier to get thru.  The flashes are not quite so sweaty and not so often.  But its got to be all 3 twice to 3 times daily to feel the full affect.
Sad thing is, i think i am really heading head first into this thing now.  I think I've only got a  couple if not zero, spotty surprises left.  Over the last few weeks, I've really started to let go of the baby dream.  I have not cried yet - but it will come.  Part of me is still holding on to the dream that I will wake up one morning and my skin will feel like it did a few years ago.  That I won't have even one hot flash.  And that i will have a glorious healthy period!  (its not going to happen, but let the other side of me read that)
What is with this weight gain?  Slow and steady a couple more pounds have creeped on. Now, this is still out for debate as I have been exercising regularly.  So the lbs on the scale quite honestly are probably muscle lbs.  I am feeling a shift in my body as far as how my clothes are fitting as the muscles are pulling things ...... er fat up.  I am still unable to really cardio out because of the accident, but whatever.  I do my best to go for a walk a couple times a week.  Do some squats and my ab stuff, its better than nothing right?  and as I have read, excercise  is always important, but even more important now as our aging body's are getting rid of bone mass, arteries are working hard from the years of crap we've ingested, the stress from our youth taking a toll.  Excercise is Key!!!  I am on the program and in the routine of doing it - that in itself is hard to get to.  So on I will go!  I will keep the faith that one day I will have less back fat and more of my waist back.  It will be a glorious day!