Well, that was short lived.
not so much as the need for a panty liner or balled up toilet paper in my panties.
the Dream for the day was nice.
Anybody want to buy some Menopur? I'll sell it to you. Half price! needles included.
Friday, December 21, 2012
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Is It?
We bit O'cramping yesterday. This morning I wake, is that a period trying its best?
I'd call it just over a spotting. But just over. I'll know more as the day prgresses.
I hope its a period. A real, bloody messy, bright red period. I know, who wishes that right? WEll I am. For a couple of reasons.
First is so that I can shoot myself with these incredibly expensive drugs and see if I can produce an egg. Second, so that my body can release. Holy Heck. Not having a period during this menopausal haze makes you thick. I am excercising when I can (lots of back & hip pain) really, really watching what and how much I eat. I have cut my favorite meal, potato's, all but out. Small portions of everything. No I am not starving myself as I know what the body does when you do that, and i just keep getting thicker and thicker. My belly! Jeepers. Just seems to be. Thank goodness for firm support everything! My waist ............ makes me sad. There was always 11/12inches difference between my waist and hips. and My waist was loooong. Now I find a wee bit of waist just in my upper rib cage and there aint no 11inches gap no more! Thank Goodness for bra's that add 2 cup sizes. Creative dressing is the key. I am all but off the wine, even in this wonderous Christmas season. yup - I be boozeless. I thought fersure all I had to do was stop drinking and the fat would just shed. Nope. That not be the case.
So on to my out loud dreaming ................
if this truly is a healthy period, not like the nasty sad one of October, I will start with 5 days of Menopur on Tuesday the 18th! That would put me at a scan on Boxing Day. I hope they will be open. If all is great and I have produced a healthy egg, I will get the turkey baster sometime the following week. Then we hope for the best. If all goes well and I get fertilized ............ carry without miscarry ................ i will be due in September! Oh My Gosh how exciting that would be.
Okay, Positive thoughts, Positive thoughts.
I don't want to go into all the negative that would and will surround these choices and chances Lyle and I are taking. The effects on our little family. The effects on our finances. The effects on our housing ........
Positive. Positive. Positive.
A baby girl - could I name her Alice. I like Alice. Simple. Old unused name. Or to match Charlotte ....... Georgia/Georgina ............. Theodora .............. Thomasina ............ Frances/Francine ............ they all turn in to boys names. I like that. Aaaaaah to dream ................
okay, back to the real world. Lets get those sheets in the dryer and finish that Christmas baking!
I'd call it just over a spotting. But just over. I'll know more as the day prgresses.
I hope its a period. A real, bloody messy, bright red period. I know, who wishes that right? WEll I am. For a couple of reasons.
First is so that I can shoot myself with these incredibly expensive drugs and see if I can produce an egg. Second, so that my body can release. Holy Heck. Not having a period during this menopausal haze makes you thick. I am excercising when I can (lots of back & hip pain) really, really watching what and how much I eat. I have cut my favorite meal, potato's, all but out. Small portions of everything. No I am not starving myself as I know what the body does when you do that, and i just keep getting thicker and thicker. My belly! Jeepers. Just seems to be. Thank goodness for firm support everything! My waist ............ makes me sad. There was always 11/12inches difference between my waist and hips. and My waist was loooong. Now I find a wee bit of waist just in my upper rib cage and there aint no 11inches gap no more! Thank Goodness for bra's that add 2 cup sizes. Creative dressing is the key. I am all but off the wine, even in this wonderous Christmas season. yup - I be boozeless. I thought fersure all I had to do was stop drinking and the fat would just shed. Nope. That not be the case.
So on to my out loud dreaming ................
if this truly is a healthy period, not like the nasty sad one of October, I will start with 5 days of Menopur on Tuesday the 18th! That would put me at a scan on Boxing Day. I hope they will be open. If all is great and I have produced a healthy egg, I will get the turkey baster sometime the following week. Then we hope for the best. If all goes well and I get fertilized ............ carry without miscarry ................ i will be due in September! Oh My Gosh how exciting that would be.
Okay, Positive thoughts, Positive thoughts.
I don't want to go into all the negative that would and will surround these choices and chances Lyle and I are taking. The effects on our little family. The effects on our finances. The effects on our housing ........
Positive. Positive. Positive.
A baby girl - could I name her Alice. I like Alice. Simple. Old unused name. Or to match Charlotte ....... Georgia/Georgina ............. Theodora .............. Thomasina ............ Frances/Francine ............ they all turn in to boys names. I like that. Aaaaaah to dream ................
okay, back to the real world. Lets get those sheets in the dryer and finish that Christmas baking!
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