since I am not using my period anymore why continue getting it?
the hormones that are supposed to be racing around in my body doing specific jobs are not doing them.
Progestrone? estrogen? FSH? just screwing me over really with zits, mood swings, forgetfulness, depression, weight gain, greasy hair ................. i wonder. If the period stops all together, will my body be happy or sad
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
Friday, April 12, 2013
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
Acceptance
WEll - It's been 2 weeks since finding out my eggs have shriveled.
Oh I've felt different twinges, discharge is crazy. My hormones are obviously working themselves out. Hot flashes coming and going politely. Night sweats being assholes, which is unusual for them. The night stuff hasn't happened for awhile, but everything seems to be finding its ground zero. No period in sight. My last chemically induced one was March 5. Dr. Ovary wanted to set up a closure appointment. I still haven't done that yet. Guess I will.
So for now I slide in to meno-pause I guess. Skin has taken a turn for the worse over the last few months. Like where is the moisture at? I drink water like crazy at work. So much that I am in the bathroom once an hour. I really notice the dryness. Especially on my face under my eyes. I need to switch out my foundation it's so bad. yet I can have these wacky grease moments. Especially with my hair! Estrogen - or lack of i suppose. I notice the elasticity is different too. So bizarre to feel the change and notice it.
However, I must say, now that i am accepting the no baby thing, the meno-pause thing is really getting much easier. I don't feel guilty or try to fight each and every hot flash. Its just exhausting when you do that! I am off all the supplements, although I am thinking I will go back on the Coenzyme Q10 the doc gave me for Fertility. I did spend a pile on them. It's not like they are at all bad for me. I'll take them till they are gone. Throwing them out seems like such a waste.
So I wonder when I will get a period again. I also wonder what it will be like. There was stuff in there. It was growing. There was a uterine lining ......... like where does it go? Does it shrink along with the eggs? There were 4 in there. They've go to come out don't they? I would think something does .............. and will it be nasty like the last one? Tar and pudding leaking out of me. Nice image I know. But that's what this blog is all about, how it really is to be a girl.
When you are and have been as body aware as I have been for the last 10 years, there are things you notice that change that someone else would just float right over and not notice. I was alone for a long time too noticing odd changes that you might pass off.
Period changes, discharge changes, more interested in sex changes, hair, my allergies have been a HUGE one too - just so many minute things that change so gradually till most women suddenly go - when the hell did that happen? It's an interesting journey I will continue to share.
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Oh I've felt different twinges, discharge is crazy. My hormones are obviously working themselves out. Hot flashes coming and going politely. Night sweats being assholes, which is unusual for them. The night stuff hasn't happened for awhile, but everything seems to be finding its ground zero. No period in sight. My last chemically induced one was March 5. Dr. Ovary wanted to set up a closure appointment. I still haven't done that yet. Guess I will.
So for now I slide in to meno-pause I guess. Skin has taken a turn for the worse over the last few months. Like where is the moisture at? I drink water like crazy at work. So much that I am in the bathroom once an hour. I really notice the dryness. Especially on my face under my eyes. I need to switch out my foundation it's so bad. yet I can have these wacky grease moments. Especially with my hair! Estrogen - or lack of i suppose. I notice the elasticity is different too. So bizarre to feel the change and notice it.
However, I must say, now that i am accepting the no baby thing, the meno-pause thing is really getting much easier. I don't feel guilty or try to fight each and every hot flash. Its just exhausting when you do that! I am off all the supplements, although I am thinking I will go back on the Coenzyme Q10 the doc gave me for Fertility. I did spend a pile on them. It's not like they are at all bad for me. I'll take them till they are gone. Throwing them out seems like such a waste.
So I wonder when I will get a period again. I also wonder what it will be like. There was stuff in there. It was growing. There was a uterine lining ......... like where does it go? Does it shrink along with the eggs? There were 4 in there. They've go to come out don't they? I would think something does .............. and will it be nasty like the last one? Tar and pudding leaking out of me. Nice image I know. But that's what this blog is all about, how it really is to be a girl.
When you are and have been as body aware as I have been for the last 10 years, there are things you notice that change that someone else would just float right over and not notice. I was alone for a long time too noticing odd changes that you might pass off.
Period changes, discharge changes, more interested in sex changes, hair, my allergies have been a HUGE one too - just so many minute things that change so gradually till most women suddenly go - when the hell did that happen? It's an interesting journey I will continue to share.
Blog On
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