Sunday, February 16, 2014

Yam Cream

my fancy Yam cream has  Yes, helped with the flashes.  YaY!  Hooray!

however, I am allergic.  So the between my tits broke out in a rash - perfect

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

CREAM

Still no period in sight.
but gosh - these hot flashes!
Just when I thought they might be subsiding to manageable ........ they mix it up a bit with debilitating and workable.  Make up your mind body!
So off I went to the health food store last night.  My purchase - 'Wild Yam Cream' - directions say to apply twice daily for 25 days and then stop for 5.  Then resume.
It has a crazy list of things it helps with.  For me - Allergies!  YaY!  Decreased sex Drive, Depression, Fat gained around the abdomen, Hot Flashes! memory loss, infertility, irritability, insomnia, sluggish metabolism, water retention, vaginal dryness. - I'm excited!!!  I had tried the prescription the doc gave with little success, so hopefully this helps even more.  Double that up with some B6 coenzyme and maybe I will start to feel like myself again!

Thursday, November 28, 2013

More of The Same

well - period seems to have vanished forever.  At least that's how it feels.  It did take a hike last year this time too.  The hot flashes weren't as bad though.  Interesting.
The hot flashes have slowed and they now vary nicely between warming me up on a hot day and egg on the neck fry kind.  I am able to wear sweaters to work now which is nice.
I was in tanks and t-shirts while everyone else I was working with was in a sweater.  I looked like an R-Tard.
Zits all over my face and neck hairline, so maybe ...............
the weight gain subsided and has gone down again.  Nice, thank you.  No I am not gyming.
the depression along with lung issues got to strong for me to keep going forward.  Actually when it was just one or the other i was still able to drag my ass there.  When they tag teamed - Forget It!
Now I am just sitting. I have stuff in the evenings anyhow.  My house - i have found myself going thru closets and drawers and bins and ...... frog just everything and getting rid of stuff.
Is this my PMS now.  Or is it the new crazy of menopause?  I dunno - what I do know is that i need to organize.  Not even clean - just organize.

Monday, October 21, 2013

Hot Flashes vs Periods

A normal period lasts, give or take, a week every month.
5-7 days in a woman's life each month to remind her she's a woman.  During this time we can have cramping, and mess.  For myself, those early periods were hell.  Endometriosis is so crazy painful and your body does a few extra gross things as a special treat.  However, I use to know it would be hell and when the hell was scheduled to come.  So I learned that I had to plan for it.  Plan to be down for a day and a half. I had a cocktail of meds to take that sometimes worked, but mostly didn't.  After my first pregnancy, endo fixed itself and I didn't have the same kind of hell ever again.  Until the day I gave birth to the Queen.  Turned out, the pain I'd had as a teen was just like labor!  Neato!
Now enter in Hot Flashes.
These bitches are exactly that - BITCHES!
They are constant.  I have been flashing Every Day and Every night since August.  Its ridiculous.  Not nice warmth like they were a couple years ago.  Where you just get a rush like you've gotten embarrassed.  These flashes make me sweat under my boobs, between my shoulder blades and all around my face and neck.  I am waking up to a wet pillow.  I mean really?  Really!  this is just unpleasant.
I would take a week of bleeding.  At least you know eventually it will end.  I am not so sure about these hot flashes.
They are bitches!

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

FLASH! and Here I am!

WEll here it is October.
My last period was  August 20.
the flashes I am having have kicked up to a temperature I never thought even existed.  I mean, seriously.  I have always been a sweater girl.  Always cold.  Then when the flashes started a couple years ago, I would feel like I had just gotten embarrassed.  You know the feeling.  Your face goes all red and the warmth is all through you.
Well these puppies make those look like nuthin'!
It's incredible.  Like I've been on the treadmill for 15 minutes of power walking with a heat lamp on me!  This has been going on since August.  I am sweaty.  I sleep in a tank top under an open window with the ceiling fan on.  All that is great till the flash passes and then I am freezing.
My moods have been .................. well I have found myself irritated the last 2 weeks and thought maybe a period is in the works...........but I don't know.  My weight is up a bit, but that's because I am not going to the gym 6 days a week all of a sudden.  I have been going 3 just to keep myself going.  The last couple days I have been tired.  So tired.  I should be at the gym.
I am still taking my Milk thistle/vit E/Primrose combo.  but it is really not doing anything anymore.  I need to do some more homework and figure something better out.
Big thing - I am not on mat leave and that's what should have been going on at this time.  I have been having a hard time with that.  I was supposed to be home right now, getting ready for the arrival of bundles.  Marvelling over how my body has changed.  Glowing from pregnancy not sweaty and dripping under my boobs from the last hot flash.
it I nice though to be able to not pretend anymore.  I haven't talked out loud about some stuff my body is putting me through - hot flashes.  I just kept hoping they weren't real.  I remember when the night sweats started.  Few and far between.  Charley was little - we still lived in the yellow house - then they subsided for a few years.  They came back about 2007? I think.  Not every night.  But they were definitely there ......................... not in to these kick my ass flashes that make me flash husband every time I have one.
I can strip faster than a peeler at the Aldy inn!

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

A Regular Period?

So WHAT THE HELL!

I can say I have been having a period every month since January.
Of course the first 3 months were because I was on all those hormones, but how does that explain now?  No hot flashes
can I contribute this odd change to the hormones I did take?
maybe the progestrone I started taking beginning of June?
I am still taking the evening primrose, milk thistle and selenium........
Maybe my new diet and health plan?  Excercise?
Well whatever it is I'll take it.  Yes, it is true.  I'd rather have my period than not.  I don't feel so heavy, my mood is better, the wieght gain appears a bit more in control ....... yup - for now it is a good thing

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

In Conclusion

since I am not using my period anymore why continue getting it?

the hormones that are supposed to be racing around in my body doing specific jobs are not doing them.
Progestrone? estrogen?  FSH?  just screwing me over really with zits, mood swings, forgetfulness, depression, weight gain, greasy hair ................. i wonder.  If the period stops all together, will my body be happy or sad