Trying Again

Such good news!

if you recall, my brother and his wife had a miscarriage earlier this year.

I jsut got word from him that she is knocked up again.  She is JUST pregnant.  That would put her due in July.  Thats when I was hoping for this last month - but of course wake this AM with my period.

so i am happy for them.

Mountain and I talked about the baby thing for us just the other night.  Sometimes i just don't know.  Guess I said a lot that put it on him.  And yah, thats how I feel now.  He got upset.  Not mad or fighty or anything, just kinda wondering why I am making it all about him?  Well, i said......cuz it is.  untill you go and get that other test done, its about you.  You claim to only have one working nut, yet havne't gone to the doctor about it.  We already know you have a low sperm count, yet you won't stop having your 'personal' time and then we 'do it' when i am ovulating, but might as well just be shooting water up there.  so Yah i put it on you.  

i am ovulating.  i have been charting.  I've gone for the invasive ultra-sound.  i've gone for blood work.  I am taking folic acid and lecithin and......

Yah i am putting it on you.  What have you done?

and then i reminded him that I turn 40 in 5 weeks.  They won't help us.  It was like the first time he'd ever heard it.  YOU WERE SITTING RIGHT THERE WHEN THE DOCTOR TOLD US!  Anyhow.........my Bobo is expecting.  My Sister is expecting and its a good thing i am not.  Cuz I am not working.  We don't have room in this house.  Blessings come in all kinds of ways.

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